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Long time no hash

Ok its been over a week since I last smoked up. Hash is the only drug I currently consume besides drinking alcohol. I have a cold so I can’t really go out and smoke, and I can’t smoke at home either cause mama will kill me, literally.  I would really appreciate a nice fat J right now, but what could I do.1410_p42582

Today I didn’t really do much, woke up at around 1 P.M. cause I stayed up really late last night. I basically hung out in my room all day. Facebook is really boring and it makes feel bad about myself to see where eveyone has reached in life while I’m stalking them online. 5odc2tmp

I also watched the movie “What happens in Vegas” despite the fact that I saw it before in the theatre. It is a funny movie so I didn’t mind at all. Actually I saw this movie with my ex, it was the time when she compared herself to cameron Diaz . Ashton Kutcher plays the same role he plays in all his other movies (except The butterfly effect maybe), but he plays it well so I m fine with it. Cameron Diaz is incredibly sexy, funny and nice. I know she’s probably not nice in real life, she’s probably rich and snobby, but still I do like her. what_happens_in_vegas_movie_image_ashton_kutcher__cameron_diaz__1_1

I’m having a daylong on/off conversation with Lulu, my best friend, on MSN. He is going through similar feelings of boredom and indifference as myself. Our problems are alike, we have diagnosed them well, but we can’t find a cure/solution. I ll probably post another entry just to describe the problems I’m going through right now.

Today is my father’s birthday. He became 71 years old today, which I don’t feel is too much at all, although I usually consider people above 70 as extremely old, but I don’t see my father this way. The guy still goes to work everyday, He drives his own car and he enjoys travelling, food, meeting people which are definetly not traits of old men, especially here in Egypt.

We ordered in food, grilled meat and chicken, Kabab w Kofta,  which was awesome. Then me and my brother went and bought Daddy a brand new Armani watch as a present for his birthday. We gave it to him and I saw joy in his eyes when he opended it, I felt good that daddy liked it. 1f5e_1

I was supposed to go out with a couple of friends, we were probably going to smoke Hash, but I called them and cancelled cause my throats really hurts. We have a friend who works as a police officer, he caught 2.5 kilos of high quality hash, and of course, he got the guys a really big chunk. 15 people have been smoking this “chunk” for over 10 days now and it is still not out yet. I haven’t smoked any of it and wanted to try it today. 

Oh yea, today I took Motival, which is a really mild  antidepressant, it didn’t do anything, I would love to try something stronger.

Till later.

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This day could not be shittier

Today is Sunday, the beginning of the week here in Egypt started off as any usual day. I woke up, tired after the weekend, I dressed and went to work. I wasn’t expecting much work today as I finished all what I had to do on Thursday cause I like to keep my Sundays as laid back as possible. 

 

So My boss hits me with loads of shit that he wants finished by the end of the day, and I start getting pissed off. I snap at around 4 P.M when I started banging on my desk. I hit my calculator with my fist breaking it then I throw away, exactly like a mad man. I was so pissed off that I didn’t really care that this side of me should’nt come out at work. My pregnant coworker decided to take today off, she called our boss and told him she was sick. Of course he couldn’t say a word because she is pregnant, and him being a decent man can’t really ask a pregnant woman to work! Idiots. So anyways, I called my coworker to ask her about her pc’s password and she tells me that she is not really sick but she didn’t feel like coming to work today. Did I snap at her? Did I tell that she practically screwed me today just because she didn’t fancy to get out of her cute little house? No  I didn’t, I just smiled and told her with all the sincerity in the world that it was OK, I even joked a bit with her so that she won’t feel awkward. How cute am I?

SO, my coworker fucks up my day and I don’t even show the slightest dissatisfaction to her. I just bottle it up inside and take it out on my calculator or on my retreating bottom tooth with my tongue that is close to developing an ulcer from brushing on this retreating tooth. 

Ok I mange to get this shit day out of my way and get home at around 9 P.M. totally exhausted,  so tired I can’t even open my eyes fully. I play nice music on my laptop, some really good stuff by some local bands, I lie down on my bed for a bit. Mama makes some food for me, I get up play an episode of Becker, my second favourite comedy show after Seinfeld of course. I watch and eat perfectly enjoying my time, the perfect thing to do after a day like this. 

I go out in the balcony to smoke a cig……tastes really nice, the weather determines the quality of each cig. If it’s breezy and warm with a buzz of cold, the cigarette gives me the ultimate satisfaction smoke can provide. Anyways, I go inside once more, to check my email and my facebook, that stupid thing I wish it disappears completely.

So I open FB and I find my ex who deleted me from her friends list and who jumped into bed with another dude 2 month after we broke up, I find that she commented on a stupid “25 facts about me”  note that was written by another girl whom I really despise. I also find my best friend commenting abt that note and you know, its a fukin fest and everybody is having a ball and I feel my stomach asking permission to go the wrong way. I was so pissed off I uttered some cuss words such as “Fuck u, u dirty whore” directed at my ex, and “Burn in hell u fat bastard” directed at my best friend and “I will kill u then throw u in the gutters” directed at that girl I despise. This note pisses me off more because that girl I despise is the fakest person I’ve ever seen, along with my ex, she makes a big deal about stupid details of her life like “I like make up” or she “likes green tee” and random stupid shit like that. 

So here I am, its 1 a.m., I’m lying on the bed, with my laptop on my stomach, writing about an extremely shitty day, thinking about waking up at 7 the tomorrow and feeling like shit.

anyways, this was too long and it is not edited at all, I ll edit it later. Salam for now.

Ohh noo

I was never a big fan of skinny girls, I never really got the point behind everyone wanting to lose weight to be sexier. I couldn’t understand the simple equation of skinny = sexy. Its not like I’m more attracted to fat or chubby girls, no, I’ve always loved a girl with a nice figure, the curvier the better, no one can deny. Well, I said I did not see the point of sexy skinniness, but I guess I do now.

My ex-girlfriend was a kind of girl that would not shut up about weight and how she wants and manages to lose weight. She would starve herself for days , surviving only on orange juice and cigarettes. The poor thing thought she would have the body of Cameron Diaz if she lost enough weight!! “I’m tall and I have wide bones, just like her!” she once said to me when we were watching “What happens in Vegas”. My ex had a nice body, but she was no Cameron Diaz, no Cameron Diaz at all.

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So anyhow, what moves me to write a post about that now?!! I was checking facebook and I found this girl I used to  make out with. Well, she is as skinny as they come, with all the right curves everywhere and the innocence mixed with the whorness that evey man admires! 

Holding a girl and feeling her bones at your hands is quite arousing, don’t know why exactly, maybe because you feel completely dominating and poweful….not sure, I have to find another bony girl here in Egypt which is quite a difficult task given our ma7shy loving culture!

Invisibles

Yesterday I watched a spanish movie called “Invisibles”, it was showing in the Cairo International Film Festival. The film is produced by Oscar award winner, Javier Bardem, you know, that killer guy from “No Country for Old Men”. invisibles2

Directed by 5 directors, the movie plays for around and hour and a half, and it consists of 5 mini movies/Documentary-like segments. It takes place in different parts of the world, displaying different disasters/miseries happening to residents of those areas. It starts off with Bolivia, then the Democratic Republic of Congo, Uganda, the Central African Republic and lastly, Colombia.

The movies tells stories of rape, children soldiers, war, disease, displacement all covered with other unpleasant themes, such as poverty, cruelnees, greed…etc. People to whom those things are happening to are deemed to be “invisible”; no one could see them, not governments, not large pharmaceuticals, no one with actual power rather than those struggling NGO’s that don’t have the necessary resources to help.

It goes without saying that the movie was incredibly depressing, it wasn’t what I had in mind for a thursday night movie, but It brought several things to my attention.

  • Egypt is a nice country. We don’t get raped, we don’t have epidemic diseases, no civil war….we have water food and security. Despite the many shortcomings of this country, compared to those examples, it is god’s heaven on his earth!!
  • Oscar Wilde once said, “Thank God life in Unfair”. Of course! I didn’t anything do anything special in my life to be where I am now. I simply walked my natural course and here I am, enjoying an easy, comfortable, safe life, while others are simply unlucky so they were born in a Central Africa or Uganda.
  • Black people in all western countries should be thankful their ancestors were captured as slaves 2 centuries ago. It is ironical, but couldn’t be truer. Just imagine Oprah Winfrey getting raped by 4 Mau Mau rebels after they killed her husband in front of her & her children. Imagine Michael Jordan invisiblesKidnapped and forced to carry a gun at the age of 11 and forced to kill his own brother beacuase that latter attempeted to escape the camp. Imagine Condoleezza rice getting the Sleeping Sickness form the Tsi Tsi fly, and being not able to get the medecine because large pharmaceuticals won’t produce a medecine that will only be consumed by people who can’t pay for it.
    This concludes one thing: While slavery was a terrible thing, the grandchildren of those africans enslaved are exteremly lucky.
  • This movie reassured my conviction about the unfairness of life, the impossiblity of a the existence of GOD. On the other hand, my dispise for capitalism, which i proudly believe in, has increased dramatically. I can understand if the lazy, the stupid and the genetically unlucky is thrown out of the system mercilessly. But what about those people, who don’t have the choice in anything. Those people might have the best ability for work, production and creation but they are not given even the smallest chance to grab. Governments and big companies are not paying the slightest attention to them, not that they are obliged, but it is extremely cruel.